Back from the Dead (Read 162 times)

[Bronxkidd / Jordan]

So here I am.
Back on Lunatic Red after not posting for around 11 years.
Already stated in my re-introduction posts that it's a shame I was never super active in the first place.
This spontaneous action I've taken to return to this old forgotten Forum and perhaps try to breath a little life Into it myself.
It's kind of surreal, I haven't been a significant user of forums in all these years.
This was the last Forum I was particularly fond of.
And I really only came back to get in touch with my dear old pal LunyRed.

I've made contact with him on YouTube, though we only have exchanged a few messages in the comments section of his latest video.
He seemed quite enthusiastic about suddenly hearing from me after so long, and I'm hoping he might be up For re-establishing contact through a means more private than a YouTube comments section.
Good guy that LunyRed / LunyRem, Lot of good memories from all those years ago.

So I found what I was looking for.
But this Old Forum still intrigues me beyond what I sought to find.
A few people seem to have been active in recent months.
And they all seem like swell people~
Not saying I'm going to be super active.
But I'd like to give this forum a little bit of my time and check in more often now that I actually managed to get my old account back.

Eventually I should get around to refurnishing this old Profile.
But for now there's a slight charm to the cringey old signature and odd superimposed Photo Bucket logo located on my Profile Picture and so many other images on this Forum.
Not that anybody is likely to judge me if they simply see my Profile stuff as clear remnants of a long gone and more primitive era of the Internet and Forum Culture.

Gotta Say...
It's honestly really depressing that 99% of Old Topics and Posts on this Forum were purged as part of the effort to resurrect this Forum.
I understand why it was done.
And it's unfortunate that the Forum hasn't once again skyrocketed to popularity.
But all of those old threads with my old friends~
And those Fossilized posts of a very random and Younger Kotaro-Kun / Jordan.
I wish I could look back at it all and gaze into the abyss of our pasts.

I certainly have more to say about myself in the past and the present.
And more things to reminisce on.
But this post has already gone on long enough.
I wish everyone old and new on this Forum the best.
And I hope that maybe we can achieve some level of regular activity amongst users again~

[lazulum]

I feel ya, I was not very active when I first came here. Much more active these days than I was then. There is a "Lazulum 2" on this forum because it took me a while to find my old email as well haha.

I hope you don't feel dismayed, it's a very busy time for a lot of us so we're not so active at the moment. I think things will pick up a bit before long. I've been nothing short of exhausted these days, very busy.

Yeah DDdreamer drops by every once in the moon, he made the ultimate decision but I can't blame him either. The memories are there, don't need the posts to have those in hand.

Feel free to share more about yourself if you like. Gives the forum more personality.

[Bronxkidd / Jordan]

I've still been lurking these past few days since I rejoined the Forum.
And...I keep wanting to post something or simply contribute.
But it's dawned on me.
I don't even think I'm invested enough or super hype about Touhou at this point in my life.
Like it's kind of far removed from focus so I'm not sure what I'd discuss in relation to it.

My last Period of any significant interest in Touhou was probably 2019 when I would play an Hour or two of Official Bullet Hell Touhou Games and regularly Talk about it with My Girlfriend at the time.
I'd play the games occasionally, watch quite a lot of Videos covering a wide variety of Fan Made content.
And share a good amount of Touhou Memes back and Forth with my Ex and a few friends.

It's really quite a shame that I lost her.
I won't go into the gritty & more uncomfortable details about how it all fell apart.
But she developed a big interest in Touhou and all of the media related to it through me.
And though I know she still holds a significant interest in Touhou and continues to play the games and enjoy various other aspects of the Fandom and Fan Made Content.
Losing that special person who I shared so much good with, took a massive toll on my life over the past 6 months.

There have been various periods of horrendous lows since I lost her.
But I'm recovering a lot better mentally within recent weeks, and finally finding myself able to hold myself together again.
I think that's probably the most significant reason why I'm making sudden spontaneous decisions lately.
Doing more things to change up the pace of my life and what I spend my time doing.
Being a bit more independent and feeling a lot better about myself.
Randomly getting in touch with this old Forum again and tracking down a beloved old friend.

The Gist of things is.
I'm doing quite a lot better and I'm pushing myself to do different out of the ordinary things in several different ways.
Back to pondering what I should do here and where I belong.

Everybody here seems to know way more about Touhou than me.
I used to have a fairly comprehensive knowledge of Touhou Lore, The Most Popular Videos and Music, as well as had sunk several hundred hours collectively into playing the numerous official entries in the Touhou series as well as a nice handful of Fan Made Games as well.
But the latest Game out at the time was Touhou 12 Undefined Fantastic Object.

Touhou 12 Was my Touhou Peak.
Loved the hell out of the Game, Would probably play it for at least 3 hours a day for weeks on end.
Would listen to the Soundtrack every day and made a cringey big Deal about how Murasa Minamitsu was my Waifu and constantly sought out Fan Made Content focused on her.
And I stayed quite invested in Touhou Project through 2010 and into early 2011.
But early 2011 and throughout that years was the steep decline of my Touhou Hype Phase.

Okay, I'm Rambling and Rambling in circles here.
I guess I do have plenty to talk about if needed.
But I feel a bit foolish simply going over vast amounts of details of my life here
It's been so long since I was active on a Forum like this.
I guess I could keep going over my past experiences with Touhou.
But it feels like I don't have any actual present stuff to communicate.
And I feel kind of silly for that.